Bad Influence

I fell to the ground
Trampled on by your feet
I lay in the muddled water
I am muddled water
I reached up to the dark gray sky
Grabbing for the imaginary support.

A fat raindrop breaks upon my face
Even nature is pitying me.

So cleanse me,
Renew my soul,
Save me from you.

Stroke of Light

The molecules vibrate
Even harder when there is lightning
And I find it more
Frightening
To hear sirens in the distance
Than how close the crack was.
And I find myself
Praying for the safety of others.
While I lay on my back
The roof, the only thing
That separates me from the rain,
The cold,
The magnificence.

Masks, Masks On Everyone

I don't understand you.
You're not the person I thought you were.
There's a darkness to you,
That I never saw before.
How can I trust again?

How is it that
People can say one thing,
But do another?
I'll never understand.
Sure hypocrisy is human nature...
But you have it to the extreme.

Let that be a lesson to me.

Maybe It's Better This Way

I want to segregate my heart
From loving
Because I have too many fears
Fear of losing
Fear of regret
Fear of pain.

I have nothing to offer
Nothing to give back
No gift to equate yours
I am no where near
Your enlightenment.

It's easier to not feel
It's easier not to be comforted
It's easier not to give in in the first place
It's better this way.

The Truth

I will never insist on
Things that have
A coin's chance of outcome.
I will never force you
To love me.
I will never lie
To get my way.
I will never love
Superficially.

I can believe in you
Hurting me.
I can believe in you
Changing my life.
I can believe in you.

But please
Don't toy with my emotions,
Don't drag my heart by your feet,
Don't trample on my dreams,
Don't purposely murder my spirit.

Don't think that I'm fragile
Without you.

I'm perfectly fine on my own.
I have survived without you,
Before you.
And I can do so in the end.

Remember this truth.

Crimson Road

I am falling like autumn leaves
Floating softly, gingerly dancing
Caressed by the wind, cradled
Powerless, captured

I can feel your presence
I can feel your fingers run on my lips
Your gaze on my neck
Watching my temple jump

I hold out my arms
Like a bird spreading its wings
Ready to take flight
But I lean back

Fall
Fall
Fall

The moment before I hit the ground
I was grasped by an unknown force
I am moving in liquid
Floating, but not
Drowning but living
Entangled, but free

I walk down a mysterious road
Curiosity lured me there
I averted my eyes down the path
And only when I set my sight straight
Did I see you.

Self-Evolution

I promise to love myself more
To live each day with less regrets
To cherish each breath I take
Make use of the talents bestowed
To become less hypocritical
Race against time and win
Chase my dreams
Write something in history
To try to not make sense of world
But to make sense of my existence
Never to think crazy hypotheses as far-fetched
But to keep guard my naivety, genuineness
I will keep loving,
And love harder, more ardently
Keep safe my childhood soul, untainted
Laugh louder, smile deeper, feel fuller
I will better my wrongs
Cage the arrogant shadow to my brilliance
I will be me,
More self-fulfilled
Where my everyday is
Lived with passion and compassion.

We Are

We are flesh and bones
Machinery that is
Capable of creation and destruction.

We are fragile,
But strong-willed
Empowered by surges of what we feel.

We are kind and cruel
Altruistic,
Psychopathic.

We are beautiful and ugly
Naive and innocent,
Selfish and superficial.

We are all the same
Yet individualistic.

We
Are
Human.