31 Steps

And I'm finally here
Finally brave enough to move
Toward who I want to be.

And it only took me
31 years
To learn that it's okay

To not always wear a smile
To turn away from things
that rouse anger and sadness

To be unapologetic
for laughing too loud
or speaking my thoughts

As I look back at path marked with steps
And look forward to the vast unmarked plains
For once, I'm proud of how far I've come.

L'enfant de la lune

And it is the only light
In the dark, dark sky

Always remaining,
Always changing.

I see it in my eyes
Its reflection

A familiar sight
A different time.

I am changed
I am the same,

Another phase
An oscillation of tides;

Intrepid moments
Internalizations

Agonizing thoughts
Ardent fervor

It is an introspection
It is still the same story;

I am all of the darkness
And the only light.

Day

The light breaks through the dark,
An ever-occurring mark,
And consumes the dusk
Diffusing a dewy musk

The light ruffles the leaves outside my window
I crack open my curtained eyes to the moving row
of trees and I smile at the sight
As I reach my hand up at the imagined height

I close my eyes and felt the rays
On my face, like your fingers' caress from long-ago days
And I savour it, absorbed by my skin,
The fragmented light, my pupils are now drinking in

The day is like any other I've collected in my heart
But I still love it like a beautiful piece of art
Something that I cannot part
with, because it marks a new age's start

Today marks the first day of the twenty-second year of my life.
I don't feel any different, honestly, but I do feel that my day was brighter.
Another birthday I will remember, for sure. <3

Vingt-et-un, XXI

I have collected two decades of sand
Enough to map out what is discovered of my island
And I'm bringing out a new glass
To contain the past that I will amass

There are two crosses on the calendar of my life
But life is still luminous like a bee-hive
To make the most of those X's is what I strive
Into new adventures I dive

And I can't believe how far I've come
Arms open and I welcome
Love, melancholy, experience into my home
A citizen of life, my own person I will become

I feel so fortunate and blessed
But there have been tears and blood, to be confessed
But what am I without those things?
Ergo this girl ardently celebrates them, she sings!

There is excitement, fear, and high anticipation
And to love, to courage, to hope, I seek inspiration.