The Natural Strip

There's no use in therapy
When words can convey falsity
You can't drive away sadness
By bundling yourself up in self-pity
Your self-destructive thoughts
Are played on repeat
Where can you escape to,
But deeper into the darkness
That is your irrationality?

There's something about simplicity
That takes away all complexities
The sky understands my blues
As I walk beneath it,
The wind runs through and rinses my veins
Sieves through and removes impurities,
The sea catches the tears I'll never shed
And carries the worst of my past away

As I walk away from water's edge
I am a new me, I am the old me,
I am the person I always was, but have forgotten,
With a renewed reservoir of potentials,
Aspirations, self-belief, and hope.

Open Book, Closed Book

I opened a book
An open book

I read of heartaches
Angry words
Tear-stained pages
Blood ink
Betrayals and secrets
Darkness and evil
Apathetic souls
Careless stares
Pretentious motives
False hope

I closed the book.
I am a closed book.

Amygdala

It's like
Giving a speech in front an unforgiving crowd
Awaiting eagerly for the results of a test
Watching a disaster unravel before you
Knowing that when the night descends, danger lurks
Hearing the strange noises but never finding the source
Phobias coming true or coming at you...

It's like
Falling in love.

Action!

It's a fantasy we're all willing to live in
It's a lie we're all ready to give in
It's alluring and enticing
It makes us fall into it so easily
And yes, I am a victim
It steals the love from my heart
It steals the rationality from my mind
It conjures up feelings I've never felt
It promotes thoughts I've never dwelt
And no, I can no longer condemn it
As simply entertainment
It wraps me up and eats me whole
This is where acting becomes real.

There's A Wall Between My Mind and Your Mind

My fingers are stiff and still on home row
And all I can hear is my own breathing
I'm thinking of how to express my words
So that you can experience all that I'm feeling
So that you can understand all of me

I type then I press the delete button
All the black lettering swiped and disappear
Over and over again
I can take back whatever I didn't mean to say
But in your presence, I'm simply speechless.

Missing You

I have to constantly lie to myself
That I'll be okay
But the truth is, I'm not
I have to shield my heart away from the ache
That I feel, everytime I think about you.

I told myself that I have to be brave
That I should stand on my own
And make you proud
Oh, how badly I want you to be happy
And well, and all I can do is wish it.

Fear

My heart is racing against the speed of light
It erupts of anxiety like a volcano
And I don't want to face it,
I don't want to face it

I want to remain disconnected
For the fear of change
I don't want to draw a new image
When I can re-visit the one already perfected

I fear that my feelings will not remain the same
The one that I had felt before
Because we are composed of time
And we never remain the same,

Except in our minds.