Afterglow

In a bid to make something of my life

I seemed to have lost myself along the way

They say what is living without strife

But why does it have to be everyday?

In the emptiness that continues to grow

And movements that begin to slow

What is the point anymore? 

Nothing to learn from this lore

Only hope for an afterglow 

Cycles

This day this year has

been grey without your presence

And I wish you peace.

Sunflower

The sun only exists in this flower

With it too, I shall wither 

Who can say for certain

If anything lasts beyond this lifetime.

Another Marked Date

A passing moment

is drawn in eternity

in my very life.

A Petal Life

 I'm walking along

The veined map of this petal

Right before it falls.

Crowned

Weaved a flower crown

To adorn my head today

For another year.

Mood

 A little thing I made in tribute to the teddy graham that fell into my coffee.

My Favourite Holiday

I've been good in keeping up with tradition (though not so good at posting)... So, from where we last left off, starting with 2017! (Man, I haven't posted in forever... sorry for the ugly formatting.)

Unfortunately, the Halloweens from these couple of years (with the exception of this year) fell on work days, which meant very little photo records. 

I've always tried to get pieces that I can re-wear for my everyday attire, but 2017? 2017, I couldn't resist getting a floor-length dress in my favourite colour. :P

2017: Elizabeth Bennet (at a Japanese restaurant). It doesn't really look like Elizabeth Bennet - I just wanted an excuse to wear a pretty dress... I also haven't gotten into the world of contacts yet, so the glasses stay!

2018: Peggy Carter. Creepy work selfie. My curls fell (my hurr is never very good at staying put). I also really just wanted to get another red lippie (as if I don't have enough) - and the one I was wearing was actually what Hayley Atwall wore in the Captain America movie! I made the SSR pin myself using those shrinky dinks  - it was fun to make!

(Don't ask. No animals were abused.)

2019: Janet Wick (John Wick's female alter-ego). My friends and I came up with stripper names for each other (lol) and JANET is mine, so how fitting...! This was pretty fun to put together. I was especially proud of the slash I painted on my cheek - it was realistic enough that people asked me if I was okay, lol.

2020: Sigrit from Eurovision Song Contest: The Story of Fire Saga (I am Ygrek, her Asian cousin). I love this film, lol. Quarantine meant that shopping is hard so I re-purposed an old cardigan (that I love, but rarely wear) and just wore similar things to what Sigrit wore in the movie. I should really learn to do my hair... That was the hardest part of this "costume" (yeah, surprisingly, sewing was easier). Also pretended to have multiple ear piercings (I don't have pierced ears).

Halloween apple pies.

31 Steps

And I'm finally here
Finally brave enough to move
Toward who I want to be.

And it only took me
31 years
To learn that it's okay

To not always wear a smile
To turn away from things
that rouse anger and sadness

To be unapologetic
for laughing too loud
or speaking my thoughts

As I look back at path marked with steps
And look forward to the vast unmarked plains
For once, I'm proud of how far I've come.

Milestone

Another notch noted in eternity.

Unleash

Cityboard (Black & White)

Cityboard (Colour)

Dotted

 

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 In a bid to help with the dwindling posts, posting some art that I did over the past year.

Impression

Peonies.

Paper Plane!

My first gif. ;~;

Travailart

Still Capable

of Goodness and Beauty.

What a load off my chest! How refreshing it is to draw from the heart without restraints, with only passion and feelings. To really mean it. To draw for myself (and all my favourite things!).

And this is who I want to be. To have suffered, to have hurt, but still be capable of good and capable of creating beauty. To have it seep from all the wounds, where every scar is a promise of hope and a reminder that it's in you to make the best of everything. To overcome.

28 Things

1. I know exactly what sound I like in music
2. I hate itchy throats, runny and simultaneously stuffy noses the most when I'm sick
3. I've come to the realization that 10% of my brain is always elsewhere
4. I always plan out, the night before, what outfit to wear
5. I probably have more 10 different red lipsticks
6. I prefer to eat my ice cream, not by licks
7. It hurts me most when people don't appreciate me
8. I think being meticulous and persistent is key
9. I'm slowly starting to learn to let go
10. But it's still hard saying no
11. I like long-sleeved dresses and midi skirts
12. Upon reflection, I think I'm a pretty lame flirt
13. I like sleeping between two pillows
14. I get inspired by my lows
15. I like a really good, inky, black pen
16. I still feel uncomfortable in the presence of many men
17. When I have my headphones on, it's zen
18. Been that way since the age of ten
19. I prefer eating vegetables over fruits and meats
20. I more than welcome the summer heat
21. I find that I do like challenges (most of the time)
22. What I learned is mine
23. When I'm angry, I can feel dark tendrils emanating from me
24.  (I can be overdramatic sometimes, you see)
25. Colours make me happy
26. Not speaking for a long time actually makes me yappy
27. Sometimes I wish I can sing out loud in public
28. If given the choice, this is still the path I'd pick.

Tradition! Not really poetry, but I tried to make it rhyme. All truths. 

NA LCS 2017 Spring Split Finals!

I'll never forget the deafening roar that erupted in the stadium when we all felt it in all our beings, that they had won. Top 10 feelings.

April 22: Third Placement matches - Flyquest versus Phoenix 1. They had a couple of tables for you to draw signs. Never been so empty-minded (all energy used in excitement). Then took a photo with Amumu (see, I like him, he can be my friend). Casters for this series (Zirene, Kobe, and Riv)! They be my favourites (plus Jatt). And of course, the now infamous pigeon that stole the show and predicted the outcome. What prophetic bird.

April 23: Finals - TSM versus Cloud 9. I came prepared with my own sign. Thought it would be funny to put up a score of 10 for every awesome play that took place. Like how they do it in gymnastics, ha! Can't take photos without making faces.

That's the closest I'll ever come to touching the trophy... Introducing the players... and first blood by TSM! (I may have sat still in my seat, but all my insides were dancing crazily, happily.)

Kobe! *heart* And then... TSM WON! It was such an intense series. The first two games were won so decisively by TSM that we all thought it was going to be a sweep. But nah, TSM decided to give our money's worth for the tickets and lost two games. Last game. Super. Nail. Biting. It was so damn close... but TSM took the opportunity and ran with it and the stadium, the energy in the stadium could power an entire city! That unity, that happiness, that relief, all wrapped into one. It's so overwhelming, I was overflowing with all these colours of emotions that I still cannot describe.

BJERGJERG! *heart* You's mah favouright!

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Now, for some miscellaneous photos: 

In-game photo; 

Pigeon champ; 

Biofrost, Vancouver native, woo!; 

The trophy, it gleams; 

Rivington the Third! I like him lots. What a great colour caster; 

Who knew it'd snow indoors!;

Bjergsen hugging Biofrost after winning it in Bio's hometown (something they both wanted). So cute!

All in all, it was a wondrous experience. I love it for the excitement, for the involvement, for sharing the want of a victory with the players. It definitely uplifted something in me. 10/10, would definitely go again.

Painterly

Tiny update. Feels bad that I've been neglecting my little bloggity kingdom because of work. Sakura watercolour. Painted it for an event poster. Woo!

Autonomy

She turned around swiftly,
Strands of hair half-covered her fiery eyes,
"Butterflies are meant to fly free," she proclaimed,
"You can have me in your collection when I'm dead."

Tie-Dye Sunrise

Happy New Year!

P.S. Kinda super proud that I did this all in Photoshop! The whole thing!