There Will Be No Tears

There is no hatred.

Only a person,
With her mouth opened,
Her arm raised, reaching, 
Wanting to say something
To the back of another
Walking away from her,

There is no sound.

Only a person,
Standing there,
Ever so still,
Watching the shadow
Of another
Walking away from her. 

I am angry, but I do not think it's anger. Just a resignation of sorts. Only if you knew what is going on. Only if I knew how you are. Would things be easier? Would you have placed faith in time, like I had? Probably not. Because you are the braver one. The one who DOES something. And I think that is good. Thank you for everything. I hope that things will get easier. 
I am your lesson, and you are mine. ...Perhaps the truth will be easier to digest this way.

Oscar

It's been an act all my life
If you ever thought me nice,
Why, then I've played my part right.

A Mind's Warning

"Don't do it," it whispered,
"It always ends in heartbreak."

Je suis ennuie...

So I got really bored yesterday and decided to make anime/manga versions of myself. They look nothing like me, haha, but it was pretty fun. I think that's one of the things about these character generators -- they're too general. Still pretty hilarious though. ^_^

Meow!

I had the hardest time finding my eye shape...

Nope. Still not me, haha...

Six

Right now, at this very moment,
With no regard to anything at all;
No past, no future,
No circumstances, no expectations...
In the stillness and purity of this moment
I wish so badly and earnestly,
That you were right here next to me,
Holding me, holding my hand,
Making me feel safe,
Making me feel complete,
And all I want to breathe, is you.

GETAWAY!

With all the things that have been happening recently, in all aspects of my life, I needed to get out, I needed an escape. And I did, with one of my very good friends! He had suggested that we go to PNE (an amusement park) that opened for the first time this year! I haven't gone since... *thinks* Grade 8... because I had my back brace on then and couldn't go on one of the rides (it's like a paragliding ride). We had to walk for some time before we finally found the place! Just follow the screams!

This was the second ride that we went on, "The Coaster." It was my favourite ride out of them all. AND we got the first cart, fuck yeah!

Getting fake tattoos happened after we got too nauseous on the 4th amusement park ride that we went on called, "Beach Party" or something. MAN, it was HORRIBLE. We sat and laid down on the benches for like a good twenty minutes and STILL we were nauseous. Never, EVER go on that ride (it moves like a pendulum). Anyway, these were our fake tats. I got butterflies because I love them. In the colour blue because it's Pudgey's favourite colour. Doug wanted me to get mine on my face but I was like, "No! These last for like, 3 to 7 days!" And the lady airbrushing them on was like, "Let's not ruin the perfection that is already her face." Bahaha! *cough* Too kind.

We had sworn off more rides at this point because we were still recuperating from the nausea... So we went and played some games! I love my shooting games. The pictures in the top row (there's a koala in the top left one!)... I remember that game SO DAMN WELL. I played it a lot last time I was here. It's so fun. Doug was super impressed with my shooting skillz. :D Also tried the crossbow game. I almost got it! *sad face* But it was like, 5 bucks a shot, so I didn't go a second time... And the prizes were giant stuffed animals... I don't have space in my closet for another giant stuffed animal...

Doug challenged me to this game because he wanted to see who was stronger. Wrong bet, my friend. We each got three tries. The highest score I got was 86... Doug's highest score was like, 73. HAHA, SUCK IT! YOU GOT BEATEN BY A GIRL! Na na na naaaa! (Oh, can I just add that, am I ever so glad that my panties weren't showing, thank you very much. *shifty eyes*) But we both got a prize anyway. He picked out an inflatable mace, while I picked this wand. I want to write "Kenny" underneath Princess, for Princess Kenny!!! SOOO KAWAII!!! (South Park reference.) Haha!

Then Doug INSISTED *rolls eyes* that we play Mini Golf. At the second hole, he did so badly, he decided to stop keeping score, even though I did worse at the first hole. But the picture on the right begs to differ *ack-hem*... (I am the purple ball -- it shows up light blue in the picture...) And then Pudgey called and it was nice. Teeheeeee! :D

We made it a goal to go on at least 5 rides and we achieved it by going on two more kiddie rides near closing time. Hahaha... Carousel it is! I rode a bunny!!! Teehee!

Here are some random shots/scenes of the day. I had to take pictures of all butterflies! The top right photo is the first ride that we went on. I like to make myself look even uglier than I usually am... The bottom right is a structure we were playing on after the PNE closed... Oh, I didn't take a picture of the mini donuts, but those were super, duper good! (I got them when I finally got out the worst of my nausea...) We also went to the Haunted House! That was actually really fun too. The balloons popping behind us really got me. Every single goddamn time too. And there was this one time, a real person popped out to scare us and I legit closed my eyes and screamed at the top of my lungs for a good, solid five seconds, lol. The thing I hate most about Haunted House attractions is that, it's so easy to get lost in there... I always feel like they're not very good at leading you through the house... I suppose that's kinda the point, but you have to progress through the rest of the house too! I screamed way too much today (most of the time, I screamed just to scream, lol, for catharsis) and now my voice is a little hoarse... *shifty eyes*

So. I got this bruise on my elbow from "The Coaster"... I guess that's one of the cons of being a petite person on an amusement park ride... You seriously get tossed around in your seat during the ride! I banged my elbow on the side of the cart because I was sliding around in my seat and there was this one time when I legit flew up and out of my seat that I was almost standing. Frightening! But thrilling!

Some time during the day, I wanted to get my face painted too, so I gots another butterfly done. It's so pretty. I was so sad when I wiped it off. Here's the first selfie that we took. But because Doug's phone's camera's kinda fucked up, it turned out like this... And I hate to say it, but Doug looks gayer than he usually does... Hahahahahaha...

Take two!

And of course, end the post with an obligatory camwhore pic. It was such a fun day! I can still feel the occasional bout of nausea, but it was still fun! We went to pho afterwards because we needed the hot soup to settle our stomachs... and that was good, even though it was super MSG-laden. And then I pulled a super derp at Columbia station, running back and forth between the two platforms because I thought that the Expo line was on another level... *shifty eyes* Good day, good day!