I've been trying so hard
But the shadows won't leave me
They make me guarded,
But I think I've been guarding them too.
They've been there for so long
Burnt into the ground I tread
...and I can't be without them
I am nothing without them.
I'm dizzy when I close my eyes
The darkness is a drug and a fright
It's a such a war, such a struggle
In my mind
And I'm laughing and I'm crying
So afraid, so I'm fighting it
And I'm hiding in it
I'm holding onto it.
